Unable to have it come out

I've had the desire to cry
to let it all out
to have everything come to the surface
so that it can wash away
But the tears won't come
they shy away
as they see the world
the very environment that beckoned them forth
Not wanting to be hurt
not wanting to leave the depths
of which they are safe
But I still long to cry
to make things better
get it over with
finish it off
and let the healing begin
And the healing will begin
once one brave tear has made the journey
it will begin
With one tear a river will form
and from that river comes my redemption
which will make my outlook anew and restore my faith in others
My faith has been bruised
torn and scared
but it is still breathing
and recovering once more
Hope is fearless and never dying
I will rage against the voice
that tells me to quit trying.